Elijah House ~ Pt 2

I think the course has opened up a can of worms for me. I thought I knew a lot after reading their books and attending one Elijah House seminar before, but oh boy, a lot more is revealed to me in this brief 2-day course. Even the facilitators shared that although they viewed the tape many, many times, they learn something new each time.

I felt rather miserable after watching the first tape on Pre-natal Wounds & Sins. I could identify with some of the traits associated with being a child who was born after a miscarriage and also a child which was born of the wrong sex. See, my parents already had two girls before me, so naturally, they were hoping for a boy but I came along. I had settled some of the issues which stemmed from them but this course highlighted other issues associated with it such as, performance-orientation. Gosh, I never realised I had this trait until yesterday. Quite a number of people who prayed for me before this have told me to just rest in the Lord and not to strive. But I didn’t get it… until now.

In my mind, I envisioned long, long years of sorting out the issues in order to be perfectly whole again. Then I heard real-life accounts of people who were not aware of their own baggages until years down the road.

“Aren’t all those years of not knowing and living a life that is not totally whole, a waste? Why couldn’t they know it and sort it out much earlier, Lord? They could have had a better life and avoided so many problems!” I asked God silently.

It’s becoming apparent to me that when I see something that is not right and is causing pain to me and others, I want it fixed and I want it fixed NOW. Hee.. A sign of performance-orientation perhaps?

Towards the end, God assured me that His timing is His to choose and He is never too early nor too late. And after the Fall of Adam, He did not promise us a life free from sufferings. In fact, after talking to my youth cell members yesterday during Word, we surmised that if it were not for the problems in our lives, we would not learn to come back to God and rely upon His strength.

And so, I prayed for patience. Patience to wait upon God’s timing and trust that He would complete the good work He has begun in me. I am probably ‘ripe’ to work through the stuff that has been revealed to me and that’s good. And for those areas which I am not aware of yet, He will reveal it to me in His time, when He knows I’m ready.

So, that concludes the 2-day video training course but I signed up for the Basic School 1 training (via video). I can’t believe it, but I’m actually going to go through an honest-to-goodness proper Elijah House (EH) course! Of course, my ultimate dream would be to go to Idaho and enrol myself in their advanced training courses. Still, it’s a delight to be able to go through an EH course since I read so many of their books which have helped me over the years and is still helping me along in this journey called life.

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